The Battle

Self Portrait

Never satisfied with this body of mine

I just need to be more, or have less

curvier, thinner.... elegance, sensuality

like all those models in magazines
attainable certainly
now, let's begin... I'll start with counting my calories.
But it's so easy to eat too much

Hide in the bathroom, puke it up
maybe... maybe, if I dont get caught
I'll fit in that dress, size zero... size zero....

Now I fit the dress, but I can do even better
thinner is better. Thinner is better.
The magazines say that thinner is better.

A few less pounds, a few less inches
little by little, breath by breath
Winning one battle.....

And losing the rest.



"It is so hard to be at peace with your body. Fuck who society dictates we should be! as a life time eating disorder chick, i know what a tough battle it is, but counseling can help you realize you are beautiful and food can be your friend. Magazines full of airbrushed models are not. Take care of yourself, you are a special awesome being." -